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Questions
03:04
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If you were crushing on someone would it be me?
If you were going to call a girl would it be me?
If you were falling for someone would it be me?
But I can’t ask that
If things were different would you still have called it off?
When you figure yourself out will you call?
Did you realise I was giving it my all?
But I can’t ask that
I just have some questions oh in fact I’ve got a few
Funny how when I write them all down they’re about you
So if you’ve got some answers won’t you share them please with me
I’m dying out here darling can’t you see
I don’t know the square root of pi
Oh wait it’s 1.772 I tell a lie
So that’s one thing that I don’t need to ask you about
But there’s some other stuff about which I’m still full of doubt
Did you delete my number out of your phone?
Do you think about me when you’re all alone?
Oh darling won’t you please come back and say that you now see
You realise the one for you is me
I’m dying out here darling can’t you see
Yeah I’m dying out here darling can’t you see
I’m dying out here darling can’t you see
I’m dying out here darling can’t you see
I’m dying out here darling can’t you see
Said I’m dying out here darling can’t you seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Bad Tattoos
04:12
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Goddamn shit I still fucking miss you to bits
Please don't go thinking I didn't fall for you cos I did
Can't stop remembering things that I liked about you
I would have forgiven so many bad tattoos, so many bad tattoos
Four months of texting before we finally met
And a couple of hours to get you into my bed
I wish I could say I was so happy when I was with you
But even when you said you liked me I couldn't tell if it was true
I was so ready to love you
But you didn't know what you wanted, yeah you didn't know what you wanted
Of all of the men I've ever felt like this about
I truly thought you would be most likely to jump in with both feet
You call yourself an adventurer
Well you left me up on that mountain all by myself, yeah all by myself
I was so ready to love you
But you didn't know what you wanted, yeah you didn't know what you wanted
I knew you didn't love me
I figured it out eventually
But I didn't want to believe
Now it's just embarrassing
It doesn't take much for me to break down over you
Even after a couple of years what am I gonna do
All I have to do is think of that kiss on the train
Or your hand on my leg in the car and it starts up again
I was so ready to love you
But you didn't know what you wanted
No you didn't know what you wanted
Yeah you left me up there all by myself yeah all by myself
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12,000 messages
6 months of back and forth
We both crossed state lines eventually
I liked your party hat
You said my dress was cute as fuck
We stumbled on through phone calls sweet and low
I thought we were together on the path
I thought we’d stepped into a different light
Our hands clasped together tight
But I was waiting on the other side waiting on the other side
I was waiting on the other side waiting on the other side
I was waiting on the other side waiting on the other side
I was waiting on the other side waiting on the other side
For you
Oh my ambitious heart
So overconfident
Of course you liked me of course you did of course you did
Built my own house of cards
So desperate for it to be real
I didn’t even breathe not a single breath
What you wanted I didn’t know but I tried to be it anyway
To be it anyway
I don’t want you to move here
I don’t know what I want
That’s what you said to me that’s what you said to me
I don’t want you to move here
I don’t know what I want
That’s what you said to me that’s what you said to me
That’s what you said to me
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Hold My Breath
04:21
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I am gonna hold my breath
Until the pain goes away
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Middle Of The Lake
04:38
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Got my leg caught in a trap
Got my leg caught in a trap
I called out but you didn't look back
Got my leg caught in a trap
Wanna break a bottle on the edge of the bar
Wanna break a bottle on the edge of the bar
Hurt you like you did when you broke my heart
Wanna break a bottle on the edge of the bar
I've seen them come and I've seen them go
From the middle of the lake in my little boat
Tethered by the slenderest of ropes
Told you I wanted to sink to the bottom
How soon hope is forgotten
I lost my shit over you
I lost my shit over you
Now I don't know what I'm gonna do
Cos I lost my shit over you
And I thought maybe you felt that way too
Now I know I just looked like a fool
I guess I've only got myself to blame for trusting you so soon
Got my leg caught in a trap
Got my leg caught in a trap
I called out but you didn't look back
Got my leg caught in a trap
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Death By Hope
05:31
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I was falling for you right when you broke it off
Now it won't go away I can't make it stop
I went too far too quick but I thought you'd catch up
Now I can't stop wondering if I could have been enough
Misanthrope
But I let you in
Death by hope
You didn't promise me anything
The older I get the harder it is to believe
I might still be the girl of someone's dreams
Feels like there's still a thread running from your heart to mine
But I don't want loose threads I just want close ties
I miss you
Come find me
I'm not hiding
So it should be easy
Told you things I'd never say sober
Wish I could ask when you were coming over
But it's never going to happen again
No I don't want to be your friend
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Wonderful
02:37
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I would have loved you so hard with all my best love
But you didn't want that you didn't know what you wanted
I hope one day when you've got yourself figured out
You'll think of me as someone you might like to be around
Unlikely as that is I still cannot find a way to kill the hope
What a dope
I showed you my heart like the sun on a garden
But you couldn't find anything there that you wanted
I wish that I'd been drunk enough to slip my hand in yours 'cos then
The burning shame of you letting go might not have felt so white hot
I am so tired of believing I could be good for somebody
Anybody!
I knew you didn't love me
'Cos you only touched me out of necessity
You will always be the one that got away
Anyone now, anyone new, will never be you
I know you like to think that people think that you're a jerk
But I think you're wonderful
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I Get It
04:08
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Think about you all the time
Find it hard to unwind
Drink til I can't stand up
I know you didn't love me
Wanted proximity
Wanted you next to me
So close that I could hardly breathe
I know you didn't love me
I get it, I get it, I get it
I get it, I get it, I get it
I get it, I get it, I get it
I get it, I get it, I get it
Wish you could have trusted me
I go to bed hungry
And stare at the ceiling
I know you didn't love me
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Swiss Army Knife
06:45
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I burned a note in the laundry today
It said "I know you don't love me, but that's okay"
It has to be okay
I have to be alright
I gave you a swiss army knife
Engraved just like the one you used to have
You said nothing
I have to stop believing
'Cos I let myself get carried away
With promises you never made
I miss you every day
I guess in time the memories will fade
But my grief now is for my dreams
How could I have been so naive
To think we were something good
My cheeks burn now I know how deeply I misunderstood
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10. |
Nothing Special
05:01
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I eat a lot so I don't turn to drinking
I drink a lot so I don't turn to blades
I don't know much about what I'm thinking
Oh wait I do
Predictably I'm thinking about you
Sleeping in my own bed's the fucking business
But without you there its fucking bullshit
But its good for writing songs in my phone memos
And hoping I will soon get over you
So now you're just another boy I met
You should be easy to forget
Yeah there's nothing special about you
I've never been blackout drunk
Cos I've never trusted anyone
I tried so hard to feel safe around you
But why attempt tomorrow what you could fail at today
I felt so overdressed
With a big dumb bow around my neck
You didn't even put on a button down shirt
I should have figured the worst
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BUCKO Adelaide, Australia
Bucko's protagonist is Hannah Fairlamb, also of noisy pop 3-piece Ponytail Kink. A longtime bedroom musician, Bucko is Hannah's first solo project and is all about getting songs that have been cooped up for too long out of the house for a bit of fresh air. ... more
BUCKO recommends:
It's Hard to Find a Friend
by Pedro the Lion
I have loved this record since it first made it's way into my life, and tried to emulate some of the sound and feel of tracks like Bad Diary Days on crushing/crushed.
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Laura Stevenson's voice is out of this world and this record is an incredible mix of sombre and sunny. I definitely borrowed from some of the techniques and sounds on tracks like Amphibian
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This Long Beard record is just utterly beautiful, and feels like floating. I have listened to it a lot and the dreamy textures never get tired, I just love it.
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A beautiful, almost glacially-stilled EP of gentle, poignant songs. Keeskea commands attention through the calm confidence that that can only come from being at peace with one's vulnerability. These are carefully crafted songs, in which subtle acoustic instrumentations frame the vocal harmonies. The production is crisply spacious, and the effect is one of lingering tranquility. I hope a full album isn't far away. Highly recommended.
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Great song writing, classic Adelaide sound, great band.
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